It doesn't seem right that trying to be positive should be so much work! I feel in battle every day. I need to visit my Dad today and keep a positive frame of mind for him. I fear his worst thoughts will come true. He has a Doctors appointment Tuesday to check progress with x-rays or MRI's and another consult Wednesday. I just don't think he's made enough progress to come home. AND he seems to be in more pain than b-4.
My oldest brother Michael needs a change of luck. Loads of bad has come upon him as well as the shite going on with Dad and the fam. I wish for him better days. He is a wonderful guy and deserves some good.
I am feeling like a prisioner. I'm bitter and resentful. It's so hard to be positive!
Feeling more and more like the chip off the ole mom block everday.

sorry for the bad ju-ju(?), needed to get it off my mind.

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